
About me, the quintessential infertile turtle
First let me tell you about me. My name is Renee, and I am a 29 year old teacher (out of work currently), who is infertile. Infertile like, my husband and I have been trying for 4 years and not one child yet. We have been to several doctors and have had several tests run. I have been through surgery, charting, so many blood draws that I look like a heroin addict, IUI, shots, HSG (twice), and heartache of course. The diagnosis: unexplained infertility. How frustrating! Because getting pregnant naturally is not likely to ever happen, my husband and I have decided to save up for IVF. The tentative date for this IVF is January 2012.
So why am I writing a blog about it you might ask? I decided in the meantime, I could be more positive. Infertility literally takes a woman to her lowest point. It will test your faith, beliefs, and womanhood. I have prayed for one thing for four years! Anyways, my sulking, crying and why me attitude hasn't gotten me anywhere, so I decided to do something that could make me happy until the day we can actually afford IVF. This blog serves to distract me and purge me of all the negative thoughts I've been feeling for four years.
These past four years have been an emotional roller coaster. Each month for an infertile woman consists of two weeks of hope, a week of anticipation and a week of complete and utter despair. So to lift my spirits until that glorious day when a doctor can insert a couple of embryos into my uterus, I am going to be thankful. That's right, you heard me. I am not going to focus on my infertility. Instead I am going to focus on the things I have to be thankful for. Each day I will pick another thing that I am thankful for and relate it to my journey of infertility in a positive light. It can be anything: a person, place, feeling, belief or an actual object that I love. I truly believe in the power of perspective, acceptance and attitude.
"When life gives you a hundred reasons to cry, show life that you have a thousand reasons to smile." ~Author Unknown
How beautiful! Our dogs (2 yorkies and a chihuahua) are definitely part of our family. We do include them in our own at home "family photos" but I don't think they would be in any professional ones... Our oldest yorkie sounds as sensitive as Mia. She licks the tears off my face when I'm upset and she'll curl up on me. Dogs definitely make our lives complete! I couldn't get through infertility without them!
ReplyDeleteI am totally for including pets in family photos! Booking a photoshoot just for a dog only is a little much for me, but that's just my opinion. Thanks for posting!
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